silly

Heartbreak. It's a silly word to someone who's never experienced it. Heartbreak makes you feel sick, physically sick, as if someone just punched you in the stomach and then took out your brain for good measure. I cannot concentrate... I really hope this MCAT goes well. My checkbook is missing; it's been missing for 4 days now. I still can't find anyone to rent out my old place. And I found out that someone who I thought I was over is still able to hurt me. And it hurts, a lot.

I can't decide whether I want to throw up or cry. My head hurts, and my chest is tight as if I have a vice clamp around it, squeezing my heart until it can't take it anymore. I'm shaking. Is it because I'm so angry, confused, disheartened? Maybe I'll throw up.

Excuse me.