mmm, thank God for chocolate :)

It really is a perfect thing -- nothing better.

There's toilet paper sitting in my living room. And bags and bags of groceries that I get to move over to the new house tomorrow.

Things are still feeling pretty strange. There's still a part of me that thinks that nothing has changed at all; that things are just the way they were at about 3 p.m. yesterday. Funny how the brain is capable of so much, yet it can't even face reality at times.

I'm getting really tired of this whole "I have veto power and I'm going to use it whenever I personally disagree with something" attitude of the Prez. If the president is supposed to be representative of the American people, why doesn't he at least listen to what the citizens want? After all, isn't Congress and the H of Reps supposed to be even more indicative of the opinions of the country? It's sad when the president comes on for a speech and you know exactly what he's going to emphasize, since he says the same thing every single time he opens his mouth.

Wow, okay, so I better watch my back after that ;)

Anyways, life is good, and I should probably get down to some studying. I've spent about the last 2 hours doing such idiosyncratic tasks as cleaning the outside of my bedroom window and picking all the fuzz balls off my carpet. Awesome, I know.

moving --- and moving on

Sunday, April 29th: It really came out of nowhere... well, at least for me. How can a relationship like that end? We were different, yes, and maybe that was something wrong, something that drove him away. I was (well, am) stressed out... with finals coming next week and the MCAT two and a half weeks away, it's not surprising. My birthday is next week. May Day is in a couple days, a day that I've looked forward to since I was a little kid. Who is supposed to be unhappy during these times? And maybe that's why he did it? Maybe secretly I was unhappy, and through time I've just normalized my expectations to a new baseline happiness value?

Boxes are still strewn about my room. I have no bed to sleep on, but I do have a mattress left over from the futon. I hope the spiders that were clinging to those boxes I found under my bed aren't going to come visit me on the floor tonight.

Heck, maybe I won't mind a little company. My spidery friends and I can commiserate on the general suckiness of the present situation... although they may be a little spiteful due to my involvement in deposing them from their lovely box homes.

dressed up with nowhere to go

the good:

Spring is (almost) here
Chocolate tastes amazing
No serious studying to do this weekend
No work either, besides splitting some cells tomorrow
No worries on failing Physio lab :)
24 more days to go!
Spin class
Elections for 2007-08 HPSO are done
The possibility of making bread tonight

the bad:

Eating too much chocolate, and feeling sick
Not knowing what to do for housing this summer and next year
Feeling adrift
pretty much
always
Getting the answering machine when you could really use a voice to talk to
32 more days until the MCAT
Tiredness

the ugly:

The sky right now; I think it's going to rain
Missing my sister and wanting to be a part of her life... sometimes that just doesn't happen though, even if you live in the same town. Pretty sad.

Time to take a nap and stop thinking.

gas, or groceries?

And it's come to this... Definitely groceries.

Time to get my weary margarita butt off to bed. It was a well-deserved night... even though it felt like I did worse than ever, I managed to pull off a 33 on my practice MCAT! Something must be working. That was even with not hardly knowing what any of the physical science passages were talking about. Questionable.

Mmm, those carrot muffins are starting to smell goo-ood! I can't wait. Kyle's coming in with the rest of the track guys at 7 or so this morning, so the muffins will be a-waitin.

Crap. I should have turned that buzzer off so it wouldn't wake all my roomies. Oh well.